MisS IT A lOt

hmm.. i miss everything that i've done a lot.. i missed it so much.. i think my friends know what i'm trying to say here.. i miss it so much till i wanted to go back to time and restart it all over.. hmm.. but should i miss all this?? i really don't know.. i want to say i love you again to someone that truly loves me back.. hope someone can show me how much they love me rather then me making them feel guilty coz of me.. i can't change my habit.. really wish that person can cope with me when she's with me.. i really want to make her the luckiest girl, the happiest and will never will feel being lonely again.. the only thing that i can do right now is to hope for the best.. believing God will give me a good respond about this thing.. i know that God won't be mad at me for me wishing to make a person's life better n happier.. pray Lord.. thank Lord for giving me this beautiful life to live.. thank You very much.. love You, God forever.. 

LoVE tO GOD

just deleted few post that is not suppose to be there.. hmm.. actually i got so many things that i want to talk about but i just can't seems to put it in words and tell you guys about this.. its really hard.. i always prefer to talk in person.. but i can't find the right person to talk to.. all of my friend just give me the same old things that i've already know about.. i really wish there's someone who can tell me something extraordinary.. something different from this world.. something that can slap me in the face and wake me up.. ofcourse i don't mean to call an alien to come down to the earth and just slap me in the face.. i just really wish that someone really understands me.. i know lots of people is finding this kind of person.. but i can say that im not really that hard to please.. i just need someone really creative in words and can be there for me when i needed them the most and whenever i'm alone.. just really need that someone to be right beside me.. thats all i want.. i really wish God can hear my prayer about this and i wish God can help me in this... i believe God will and God does.. i just have to wait for it.. and ofcourse need to do some action while waiting for it right?? there no fortune that just going to roll down from the hill if u don't do anything.. God do please help me.. Thank You, God for listening.. Amen..

LoNG LonG tIMe

its really been awhile since the last message is posted on this thing.. i hope no one misses my post.. hahaha.. but i don't think anyone would.. what else i can say.. the stories are just repeating.. my life just went from bad to worst.. seriously bad.. why does life is so hard to get through.. i felt so stupid.. i've done so much but i just can't seems to get what i want.. God.. i really don't feel like living.. but thats a terrible sin for me.. so i won't do anything stupid like killing myself or what so ever.. =.=
hmm.. i just know that myself really suck from the beginning.. i should be happy i know i'm not alone at least.. i love my friends and family.. i know they love me too.. soo i need to stay strong for them and forget all the stupid stupid things that i've done n no one appreciated it.. God knows how much i love to take care of someone.. but there just no one who let me to do so.. i don't know why.. hmm.. i'm still with my motto of life.. Life Must Go On No Matter What..

tHe eND oF TRiaLz ^^

finally.. trial oledy finish but PMR not yet.. sad.. yet everyone in my class is shouting.. Merdeka!! Merdeka!! n ofcoz Raya!! Raya!! i really hope my marks is not dat bad coz i really hope for the best for my trial's result.. well.. i still dont hv much things to say bout myself.. i jus knw dat i met dis someone loo... cute oso.. *i got taste 1... i jus dont im i goin to the rite path.. she got a lot dat i can help her in.. such as studies n many more loo.. oya btw, my feeling of coupling in me is getting lesser.. mayb its bcoz my heart hd been crush or jus thrown away jus like dat... *i think soo.. i dont knw how to explain dis feeling in words la.. the sad news for me is.. i cant find anyone to talk to dat really undrstd y do i need a couple n wats my feeling rite now.. i jus need to help myself.. i think by doin dis is gud for me coz i seriously did study how other ppl's thinking is.. some think bout things to seriously n some other jus doesn't bother bout it... humans r human.. they jus cant change.. even for me.. im not perfect at all.. sooo.. im thinking of after dis trial exam ended.. i can hang out wit her somewhere.. n ofcoz.. im gonna help her wit her trial next 2 years.. im having my SPM n she's having her PMR.. i knw dat her IQ is quite high.. im happy for her.. n oya.. i got lots of frens ask me to help them in their studies.. for now i got 3 of my frens ask me to help them.. im really glad dat i can help my frens in their studies.. hehehe.. n i hope all the tips i give them will work n they can undrstd wat im teaching them..soooo.. dats all for now... byeee~

aBOut mY blOGeR

i knw i knw.. im not writing any of my feelings or even problems in dis blog.. but im jus a hapy to do so.. coz i dont really hv any probs to share yet.. so.. if i dont write any advice or any thing on dis blog.. it'll b pretty boring for the ppl who wants to read my blog.. *thinks there is someone gonna read my blog.. sad..
im writing dis advice not bcoz dat i wan the reader to read la.. i m writing it bcoz.. wen i get older.. i can read all the things dat i've been through wen i was young.. so.. the memories can come back to me.. im not those superhuman who can rmmbr all of the things dat they hv been through.. im sure not every one can do dat rite?? so.. the best way is to writing down.. or in dis case.. type it down.. hahaha... hmm.. i jus love my life.. it not perfect but yet its great enough... ^^

TOdaYz

hmm... a day will jus past jus like dat if we dont do something wit it.. something bad to nice.. its something.. so.. y not jus use everyday to do something rite.. something really meaningful for us... well.. ofcoz i knw theres lots of ppl oledy give dis advice to everyone on earth.. but sadly.. not every one does it.. i knw im not doing it rite as well.. yet i still try to do it.. n dats something meaningful for me.. so.. i can rmmbr it.. the things dat we hv done will effect everyone around us.. im pretty sure dat everyone knew dis as well.. im jus repeating it all over again.. its boring rite?? but try to ask back urself.. is anyone on earth perfect?? no.. ofcoz not.. who the hell dont knw dat.. rite?? dats y ppl need to b reminded wit dis things.. do gud things.. help others.. b green.. i kinda sound like my mom all the sudden.. reminding me to clean my room, do my homeworks n clean my room again.. funny rite?? hahaha.. i laugh at myself sometimes.. but i knw.. im not perfect.. so ill try yo work it out.. n dis things helps to make a different.. n dat day.. is a meaningful day.. ^^

wahh.. a long long time didnt update dis blog oledy.. hmm.. kinda missing it, so decide to update it 2day.. so as all of u guys knw.. im a form 3 n im taking the PMR.. so about dat.. dis few days is trial.. hmm.. not really well but wish me luck in it.. nothing much to update actually.. jus checking out.. still dont hv any serious love probs or wat so ever.. so.. hmm.. kinda bored n lonely.. ==
i thing dats all for now.. byee..

p/s : wish me luck for me exams... ^^