MisS IT A lOt

hmm.. i miss everything that i've done a lot.. i missed it so much.. i think my friends know what i'm trying to say here.. i miss it so much till i wanted to go back to time and restart it all over.. hmm.. but should i miss all this?? i really don't know.. i want to say i love you again to someone that truly loves me back.. hope someone can show me how much they love me rather then me making them feel guilty coz of me.. i can't change my habit.. really wish that person can cope with me when she's with me.. i really want to make her the luckiest girl, the happiest and will never will feel being lonely again.. the only thing that i can do right now is to hope for the best.. believing God will give me a good respond about this thing.. i know that God won't be mad at me for me wishing to make a person's life better n happier.. pray Lord.. thank Lord for giving me this beautiful life to live.. thank You very much.. love You, God forever.. 

LoVE tO GOD

just deleted few post that is not suppose to be there.. hmm.. actually i got so many things that i want to talk about but i just can't seems to put it in words and tell you guys about this.. its really hard.. i always prefer to talk in person.. but i can't find the right person to talk to.. all of my friend just give me the same old things that i've already know about.. i really wish there's someone who can tell me something extraordinary.. something different from this world.. something that can slap me in the face and wake me up.. ofcourse i don't mean to call an alien to come down to the earth and just slap me in the face.. i just really wish that someone really understands me.. i know lots of people is finding this kind of person.. but i can say that im not really that hard to please.. i just need someone really creative in words and can be there for me when i needed them the most and whenever i'm alone.. just really need that someone to be right beside me.. thats all i want.. i really wish God can hear my prayer about this and i wish God can help me in this... i believe God will and God does.. i just have to wait for it.. and ofcourse need to do some action while waiting for it right?? there no fortune that just going to roll down from the hill if u don't do anything.. God do please help me.. Thank You, God for listening.. Amen..

LoNG LonG tIMe

its really been awhile since the last message is posted on this thing.. i hope no one misses my post.. hahaha.. but i don't think anyone would.. what else i can say.. the stories are just repeating.. my life just went from bad to worst.. seriously bad.. why does life is so hard to get through.. i felt so stupid.. i've done so much but i just can't seems to get what i want.. God.. i really don't feel like living.. but thats a terrible sin for me.. so i won't do anything stupid like killing myself or what so ever.. =.=
hmm.. i just know that myself really suck from the beginning.. i should be happy i know i'm not alone at least.. i love my friends and family.. i know they love me too.. soo i need to stay strong for them and forget all the stupid stupid things that i've done n no one appreciated it.. God knows how much i love to take care of someone.. but there just no one who let me to do so.. i don't know why.. hmm.. i'm still with my motto of life.. Life Must Go On No Matter What..